Lenses

--- Lenses 08.06.2014 18:39

So I lost a little self-respect,
When I tried to measure my worth,
Through your lenses.

I,
who had been here,
A good few decades.

And you,
Who had just dropped in,
Pomp, worth, show and all.

I had lifted myself out of crises,
Which to you,
Were just stories, blots even.

And you came,
And passed judgements,
On who I was, am and ever will be.

And I let you,
Giving you a high pedestal,
Making you the pivot of my story.

Rapidly changing all definitions,
And framing them again,
With you as a central reference.

That's when,
I started losing me as a friend,
When I convinced myself,
That my every way I must mend.

Your lenses drew a perfect picture,
And I molded and carved myself,
Through complex surgical procedures,
To be right and well.

Yes, I gained you,
An association that cost me Myself.

A trunk-full of self esteem,
Collateral loss in a self inflicted car crash. ---